You’ve got to Be Christ
People want to imitate Christ, but, you know, when a monkey plays a saxophone, that doesn’t make him a musician. You can’t imitate Christ by imitating his external behavior. You’ve got to be Christ, you must be what Christ is, love and compassion. An external imitation will get you nowhere.
And, by the way, if you think that compassion implies softness, there’s no way I can describe compassion to you because compassion can be very hard. Compassion can be very rude, compassion can jolt you, compassion can roll up its sleeves and really do a job on you. Compassion is all kinds of things. Compassion can be very soft, but there’s no way of knowing that. It’s only when you become love, when you have dropped your illusions and attachments, then you will “know.”
As you identify less and less with the “I,” you will be more at ease with everybody and with everything because you are no longer afraid of being hurt or not liked. You no longer desire to impress anyone. You no longer feel the need or the compulsion to explain things anymore. You don’t feel the need or compulsion to apologize anymore. It’s much better to say, “I’m awake,” than say, “I’m sorry.” It’s much better be able to you say, “I’ve come awake since we last met; what I did to you won’t happen again,” than to say, “I’m so sorry for what I did to you.” Why would anyone demand an apology? Even when someone supposedly was mean to you, there is no room for apology.
Nobody was mean to you. Somebody was mean to what he or she thought was you, but not to you. Nobody ever rejects you; they’re only rejecting what they think you are. But that cuts both ways. Nobody ever accepts you either. Until people come awake, they are simply accepting or rejecting their image of you. They’ve created an image of you, and they’re rejecting or accepting that. How easy it is to love people when you understand this. How easy it is to love everyone when you don’t identify with what they imagine you are or they are. It becomes easy to love them, to love everybody.
You don’t really think of “I” and “me.” You’re like a person driving the car; he doesn’t ever want to lose consciousness of the car. It’s all right to daydream, but not to lose consciousness of your surroundings. You must always be alert. It’s like a mother sleeping; she doesn’t hear the planes roaring above the house, but she hears the slightest whimper of her baby. She’s alert, she’s awake in that sense. You cannot say anything about the awakened state; you can only talk about the sleeping state. You can only hint at the awakened state. You cannot say anything about happiness. Happiness cannot be defined. What can be defined is misery. Drop unhappiness and you will know. Love cannot be defined; unlove can. Drop unlove, drop fear, and you will know. You want to find out what the awakened person is like, but you’ll know only when you get there.